Title: The Yellow Rose Series: Part 11 Meant To Live
Author: Ruby Phoenix
E-mail: reneburrows@comcast.net
Pairing: Spillow Spike and Willow
Disclaimer: Though I would love to own the characters in this story I don't.
..but the story line is mine.
Summary: Mixed signals can hurt you, and sometimes the hurt is all that can
make you realize how lucky you've been.
Spoilers: I believe only a little bit of Season 4 and some of Season 7 of
Buffy, sorry if I'm off.
Rating: Possibly PG13 for fighting.
Authors Comments: This is my first story ever, so please send me comments
kind or otherwise...if I don't get them then I won't know if I should
continue or stop.  A big thanks to everyone for all the comments last time,
they really meant a lot to me.
Yeah I guess I left a sentence in here for like the last....five parts that
doesn't need to be there...so yeah I took it out now for those of you that
actually read this part...lol.
The song for this part is Meant To Live by Switchfoot

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    Spike raced after her, seeing Willow headed straight to her house.  He
was glad she wasn't taking chances like she had the last time she had run
from him.  Thinking about the last time, he knew then that he had a planned
speech, well a least a little something to say, but this time, he didn't
what to do or say to make things right.  He had tried so hard the time
before, tried to make her understand why he did things and what he felt, but
it didn't work.

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly

    Willow tripped over something, a branch, stone or root, it didn't matter
which, what she did know was that she fell and barely missed the yellow
roses in front of her.  Not bothering to get up she let her tears pour down
her cheeks.  It wasn't suppose to be like this, she was a good person, she
hadn't ever done anything wrong (other than the one time she had eaten a
banana from her lunch before it was time to).  What did she do to deserve
being cheated on twice?

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves
Somewhere we live inside

    Spike rushed into the park following her trail until he spotted her on
the ground and rushed to her side, panic in his heart.  Grabbing her, he
pulled her to his chest in a tight embrace.  he held onto her as if his
un-life depended on it, he was just so happy to see her up and okay.  Willow
weakly tried to get away, but soon gave up, taking the chance to cry into
his shoulder and cling to him.

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been living with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken broken

    "Why!?"  Willow sobbed, her heart breaking all over again, "Why did you
have to give up?  Why did you go back to her!?"

    Petting her hair as he held her Spike made soft cooing sounds in attempt
to calm her down.  "I didn't go back to 'er for that, pet.  I went to find a
way to wake you up.  I needed you better.  She's the one that kissed me!"
He answered her desperately, praying to the powers that be to let Willow
forgive him, to let her love him again.

    That surprised Willow a bit.  She had noticed Spike's absence over the
last week, but had thought something bad had happened to him, and then
seeing him with Dru, she had assumed that he had gone back to her.  "Is that
why you stopped visiting?"  She asked his quietly, nibbling on her bottom
lip, nervous about his response.

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves
Somewhere we live inside

    "Yeah luv, I went to New Orleans, I 'as to find Dru and see if she knew
anything that could 'elp you.  I couldn't go on without you Willow."
Looking around Spike realized where they were.  In the middle of the park
(one of the biggest demon feeding grounds in Sunnydale).  Picking her up, he
carried Willow back to her house, his grip protective and possessive.

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life yeah
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

    In the shadows of a large weeping Willow tree, Dru watched Spike and
Willow smiling.  yes, she had done a good job.  They would never forget how
much they meant to each other now.

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